Friday, May 04, 2007

Loneliness

I feel like I haven't smiled for days. Between the stress of work and trying to write, I feel a little, okay a lot overwhelmed. Writing is a lonely profession even if it isn't your main profession. Sometimes I want to give up, but I never will because that would be silly, especially after coming this far. But I can't help but wonder...do other writers feel like me? Lost and alone at times, as if there is no one else out there. I live in a small town, can't make it to RWA meetings, and my only writing friendships have been formed online. I'll be at a conference in a couple of weeks where... finally!...I'll be meeting fellow writers in person!

Sometimes I feel like nobody cares, like nobody knows me, and I know it's a long process to get "noticed" but I like things to happen NOW! (Must be the Aquarius in me). I felt a little better yesterday when a family member asked me when my next book comes out. :)

My husband has a job opportunity where we will move to a much bigger town, one with more opportunities for me, and I'm really excited about it, but I have to let him make the decision on whether or not to do it. And I'm afraid he won't, because it's a new and scary experience for us both, and there's certain things he doesn't like about it. So I can't be selfish, even though it's what I want.

Sorry for the melancholy post. I'm trying to poke my head out of my cave and grab some sunshine. I think being "stuck" (in a cave, on my story, in my promotions) is starting to affect me.

On a happier note...Spiderman 3 is out today and I'm a HUGE fan! Can't wait to see it!

4 comments:

Carol Ann Erhardt said...

Hi Emma, your melancholy post tugged at my heartstrings. I feel just like you do. It's overwhelming, and some days I too feel like everything I'm writing is all wrong and question my talent and want to quit. It's rough being a lone wolf in a forest of barren trees looking for a supportive pack. Hang in there, my friend. Just wanted you to know that you aren't alone.

Marly Mathews said...

Emma,

Do you know what you need? You need RWA Online! It's a great sub chapter of RWA National, where the members are online all of the time. I'm a bit biased since I'm the President, but we'd love to have you as a member! :) http://www.rwaonlinechapter.org/

Oh, and Carol Ann, if you're a member of RWA National, you can come and join RWA Online too! :)

Hugs,
~Marly

Marty said...

I hear you Emma--I think writers tend to be a little introverted anyway, so even with a big city around me, I still sometimes feel that way. Big hugs!

Allie Boniface said...

Yes, writing is (can be) a lonely business. That's why I cherish all my online friends just as much as the ones I make in my local RWA group. And I know I'm lucky to have one!

Keep plugging - you *will* get noticed (you already are!). :)