Friday, May 04, 2007


I feel like I haven't smiled for days. Between the stress of work and trying to write, I feel a little, okay a lot overwhelmed. Writing is a lonely profession even if it isn't your main profession. Sometimes I want to give up, but I never will because that would be silly, especially after coming this far. But I can't help but other writers feel like me? Lost and alone at times, as if there is no one else out there. I live in a small town, can't make it to RWA meetings, and my only writing friendships have been formed online. I'll be at a conference in a couple of weeks where... finally!...I'll be meeting fellow writers in person!

Sometimes I feel like nobody cares, like nobody knows me, and I know it's a long process to get "noticed" but I like things to happen NOW! (Must be the Aquarius in me). I felt a little better yesterday when a family member asked me when my next book comes out. :)

My husband has a job opportunity where we will move to a much bigger town, one with more opportunities for me, and I'm really excited about it, but I have to let him make the decision on whether or not to do it. And I'm afraid he won't, because it's a new and scary experience for us both, and there's certain things he doesn't like about it. So I can't be selfish, even though it's what I want.

Sorry for the melancholy post. I'm trying to poke my head out of my cave and grab some sunshine. I think being "stuck" (in a cave, on my story, in my promotions) is starting to affect me.

On a happier note...Spiderman 3 is out today and I'm a HUGE fan! Can't wait to see it!


Carol Ann Erhardt said...

Hi Emma, your melancholy post tugged at my heartstrings. I feel just like you do. It's overwhelming, and some days I too feel like everything I'm writing is all wrong and question my talent and want to quit. It's rough being a lone wolf in a forest of barren trees looking for a supportive pack. Hang in there, my friend. Just wanted you to know that you aren't alone.

Marly Mathews said...


Do you know what you need? You need RWA Online! It's a great sub chapter of RWA National, where the members are online all of the time. I'm a bit biased since I'm the President, but we'd love to have you as a member! :)

Oh, and Carol Ann, if you're a member of RWA National, you can come and join RWA Online too! :)


Marty said...

I hear you Emma--I think writers tend to be a little introverted anyway, so even with a big city around me, I still sometimes feel that way. Big hugs!

Allie Boniface said...

Yes, writing is (can be) a lonely business. That's why I cherish all my online friends just as much as the ones I make in my local RWA group. And I know I'm lucky to have one!

Keep plugging - you *will* get noticed (you already are!). :)